Wednesday, December 18, 2013

And so our life with little one begins...


Monday, December 9th, 2013 - Morgan Alzada Guth - 9 lb. 6 oz. - 11:11 am - 21 1/2" 

Today is the day!  I am scheduled for a c-section at 10 am.  We're spending the night in Columbiaj ust so we don't have to get up so early.  My night goes as normal, sleep a little, pee a little, sleep some more, pee some more... Though I did have some back pain during the night, I just blew it off as the bed and the fact I'm 40 weeks pregnant.  About 545 am or so I started feeling crampy, I thought to my self hmmmm is this what contractions feel like? So I laid in bed for a bit longer and felt two more.  They were very sporadic, so I didn't wake up the sleeping husband.  When the alarm went off at 630 am i said to him, I don't know what contractions feel like, but I think I've had three.  He asked if he needed to rush to which I said no.  So he goes on about his moring shower and I walk in the bathroom to brush my teeth.  Suddenly I feel a trickle down my leg... My first thought was there is no way my water just broke, how is this possible and at the same time I thought how convenient.  Brandon was in the shower and I told him, then went to the restroom and sure enough, that was it!  We got packed up and overt to he hospital pretty quick.  We were only a block away.  I had a couple ore. Contractions while waiting for my c-section, a couole were hard contractions,  my stomach, I've never felt it so hard.  

Fast forward to c-section.  For those of you having one, please read this carefully.  It's not the horror people make it out to be!!  They prep me and I walk from the labor room to the operating room.  The epidural is annoying just because of the position you have to sit in while they give it to you.  It's an instant numbness from just below your boobs to your feet.  You can he ar what's going on, you're laying flat in your back and your arms are out on arm boards.  Don't worry, they aren't tied down.  :)
They'll put the screen up and go get your husband and it's time to start.  You'll hear the dr and nurses talking and you'll have your husband up by your head patting your arm or your shoulder, he'll be a nervous wreck and doing his best to comfort you!  You won't feel an y pain, what you will notice is the tugging, pulling and pushing before, during and after baby comes out.  All of a sudden, it's a girl, 11:11am, 9 lb. 6 oz. 21 1/2" long!!!  As soon as baby come out, dad leaves your side and goes with baby.  He stayed with her from moment one!  The whole process takes about 5 minutes.  Now sewing you up, that takes about 30-45 minutes.  As I said, dad is with baby.  In your case, all hospitals are different, he was with her when she was cleaned up and even wheeled her up to the nursery.  He was there to help with her first bath and was there the first time I met her in the recovery room.  Wow!  What a perfect sweet little princess!  



Now on to the nitty gritty about c-sections.  You hear lots of horror stories about how horrible they are. I would like to clarify for you they are not!  Other than being stuck laying in bed for about 12-18 hours, you will survive.  Make sure you drink plenty of water, the better you fill that little cath bag, the sooner it comes out and the sooner you can shower!  You will appreciate this shower more than any you've ever had!!!  Be prepared for lots of blood... It's gross, you will have clots half the size of your fist, again, it's gross.  While you're laid up in bed, the nurses will come in and "clean you!"  Yes, they will squirt water between your legs and wipe you clean...  Did I tell you to leave your modesty at the door when you walk in to have a baby?  Well, you should!  Bring your own granny panties and your own pads!  Make sure they are the thick, period from hell pads.  You'll appreciate this as much as your shower.  Those sexy gauze underwear and hospital pads just don't cut it!  Make sure you have someone who is staying with you.  You won't be able to do everything for baby for the first day/night.  Once you can get up and walk and your cath comes out, you'll be set, but until then, you'll need someone to change diapers, hand you baby to feed and etc.  I somehow got lucky and have this great guy Morgan gets to call Dad who stayed with me!  Seriously, this guy is my hero!  Okay, back to business, walk, move, walk!!!  Yesterday, Morgan was 1 week and 1 day old.  We had our f ire today out.  It felt good to be out and moving, but I can sure feel it today.  Take it easy!

You won't sleep worth a shit for the first night, between the nurses coming in to check on you or check on baby, they'll come in to weigh her at 4 am, just when you fell asleep, your dr will come in at 6 am, then it's time for the nurse again, then the pediatrician and etc.  As soon as you find a comfy spot in the horrible bed, here comes someone else.  The second night isn't as bad, the nurse doesn't check on you quite as often,  she'll still come in to check on baby, but you won't always notice.  They really do try to be quiet when they come in.  Be strong, mind over matter, if your handling your pain well, have gone pee and poop and babyis doing well, you'll probably get to go home on day 3!!!! We did!  Nothing at es you feel better than getting released from the hospital a day earlier than planned!  

So you've been released  and it's time to take that new bundle of joy home!  There's no better feeling then walking into home with your new baby.   Now what?  They'll eat, a lot, sleep, a lot and poop, a lot!  Were 10 days in and have settled well.  We just need to learn to go to bed when she does and not stay up until all hours of the night.  She does well on car rides.  In fact, as long as her belly is full and her butt is clean, she's pretty easy going.  :)

One more thing they don't tell you about....  POSTPARTUM HEADACHE  - I'm hard headed and don't like taking anything more than tylenol or ibprophen for headaches.  If ought this one for 3 days before finally calling the dr.  To which they said take one of these pills you we're give and rest.  Between that and Brandon making me drink what felt like gallons of water, it was finally gone!  Make sure you drink lots and lots of fluids!!!  Oh, and the tension and body aches.  Think about what your body has just gone through. 

Good luck ladies!!! 





Sunday, December 8, 2013

40 weeks today

We made it!  Our little miss Morgan is 40 weeks gestational age.  Did I think we would go full term, no. I don't  know why, at one point I kept telling people she would be here by Thanksgiving,  This also coming from the woman who thought she was a he, those ultra sounds sure proved me wrong.  Tomorrow out little girl will be brought into this world via csection.  She's a night owl, so I'm not sure how she'll feel about this, and it's cold!  Hahaha!  Home is well prepped for her.  It's going to be a long 3 or 4 days spent in the hospital.  I hate being stuck.  We will get through it though.  :). 

I'm not nervous, I've had major surgery before.  I'm not scared, I am anxious.  We're ready to meet her.  Her and her temperamental self.  I know some excited grandparents and a very excited auntie who will probably sleep less than us tonight.  Our world will be forever changed, we enjoyed our last dinner as a family of 2 tonight.  

As we begin out adventure as parents, I'll do my best to update as I can.  :)

More later...  


Tuesday, August 6, 2013

So... I'm slacking

It's a GIRL!!!!!!!!!

That's right folks... Morgan Alzada is who the girl is!  She'll arrive sometime around 12/8!!  HR was 143 bpm ....  

We did a gender reveal for our parents... it was so much fun!!!  


We're very excited!!  More photos to come!  





Wednesday, July 10, 2013

17w3d.... 7/3/13

I'm a little behind I guess.... I had a 4 week check up last week.  No u/s, dang it!  But the dr did the doppler thing and we heard the hb.  Dr estimated about 160 bpm. 

Next appt is 7/31... hopefully the kid is cooperative and we'll know what IT is! 

Until next time!

Saturday, June 8, 2013

13w 4d

Today was a big day!  Dr appt, ultrasounds to test for chromosomal abnormalities and blood draw to test for CF.  so far everything has came out fabulous.   Of course when incomes to blood work you have to wait forever.   I am not worrying about it though. What ever it is will be just fine.  We will take it1 day a time.  

We were hoping to get a sneak peek today and see what Baby Guth is... No luck... He/she was sleeping.  Hopefully that's an indication of good sleeping habits.  Ha!  

Baby's hr was 145 bpm and today was the first time we got to hear it.  That was cool!!!




Wednesday, May 22, 2013

11w 2d


Here is baby Guth at 11w 2d.  I had a super excellent first visit with my MFM!  I go back in two weeks for some typical genetic testing.   It doesn't matter to me either way it is.  I look at it as another way to see our baby again!!!  

Monday, May 6, 2013

9w1d

So today, I wasn't expecting to have an u/s, but since my dr is so great I got one!! :) She also wants to refer me to a high risk dr. At first I was a little broken, but once it really soaked in, I was okay. She is doing this for the best interest of baby and me. I am torn as to where I want to go. I have several options, but I have narrowed it down to 2. I have to make up my ind I the next day or so.

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

8w3d

I got nothing... I wish I had some big update, but nada. I feel great, I'm not exhausted, I do feel a little bit of bloat and my boobs still hurt, but all in all I'm fantastic! Just wanted to throw that out there for those of you who are keeping up with me. :)

Today, my friends, I leave you with this....

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Just a little side note...

Went to radiology to get a measurement and have my ovaries looked at...

Here is baby Guth at 7 weeks and 2 days.  Heart rate is 155 bpm.  Dr called today and said everything looks great.  She said that I do have a really small cyst on my right Ovary.  She does not see anything happening other than it dissolving itself.  

Sorry the picture is sideways... 

Friday, April 19, 2013

Whew...

I feel soooooo much better now that today is over and jelly beanies measuring right on track!!

Can you see it?

BFF's

How is it possible that a true BFF knows EVERYTHING?  This morning, out of the blue I got a text message from my BFF that said, morning friend.  I am thinking about you today! 

I hadn't even told her yet!  How did she know she needed to be thinking about me today??  Well, she knows now!  Thanks, Jami!  You rock girl!  

ESP is a very strange thing!  HAHAH!   

Just a few more hours and I'll be through this.  I am not worried about the "exam" itself, it's the news.  Good news is preferred of course.  I need to hear reassurance that everything is okay! 

More this afternoon ladies!    

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Nervous... Anxious... Excited... What am I supposed to be?

It's cool if you want to laugh at me.  I have all these feelings today.  I am so a mix of everything!  Dear Lord please let us have a great dr visit tomorrow.  Deep breath, my appointment is at 3:30 pm tomorrow!  I will make it through the day and it will be a great day!  I sure can't concentrate on work, much less anything else.  

That's all the update I have for now.  If I kept typing it would just be some dumb rambles to try to occupy my mind!

Love to all!!!  
 

Monday, April 15, 2013

6w 1d

Here I am, passed the 6 week mark, barely!  Do I feel pregnant, not really.  Has this all sunk in, not really!  I want my Friday appt. to hurry up!   I am ready for confirmation and reassurance.  (Like the million hpt's I've taken aren't enough)

All the parental units now know about our big secret!  After Friday, we will share with other need to know people. 

As I'm sitting here writing about my happy occasion, my heart hurts for a dear friend.  She had a m/c last fall, and stayed so positive!  Along came her next positive just a week before mine!  We were both so excited!  Well, our excitement for her has diminished. She is experiencing what is called a Molar Pregnancy.  I won't go into explanation, let's just say this can lead to so many different issues.  Stay strong dear!  You will get through this!  You have an awesome support group and know we're all here for you! 


Wednesday, April 10, 2013

So far... So good....

Crazy to make a title like that, but it's how I feel today.  I hope this trend continues!  Other than really sore nips, peeing a lot (even more than usual and that's saying something cause I pee a lot anyways) and feeling sluggish, all is good.  

It's a strange tired I feel.  It's not a tired like I haven't had enough sleep, but like I said it's a sluggish feel.  I feel like I could take ten 20 minute naps and be okay.  You know, one nap every hour.  ;)  

Sometimes I question the whole thing, but again, I have to remind my self that a normal woman is usually just now realizing or finding out she's pregnant.  If she even knows this early.  For some it's even longer.  

Here's to a happy and healthy 9 months....  actually we're down to 8 1/2 months now!  Whoop!  :)

Sunday, April 7, 2013

5 Weeks Today

As I sit here and think, this still hasn't all sunk in yet. I mean I know I am pregnant; why do I still insist on taking a pregnancy test? It's because I'm in disbelief. I can't believe that we finally have our rainbow! Everyday I go around wondering if its all just a dream, I have to remind myself it's not. This is real.

Up until yesterday, the only sign I even sort of had was sore boobs. Yesterday and more so today, the energy level is well below zero. I'm not to the point of having to force myself to get up and do something, but it sure takes more energy. LOL

Thankfully, I have the most supportive male co-habitant! He's right there when I need him. Whether it be laundry, dishes or just picking up. I sure do love that man!

It's crazy how things work out. Deep down this is what we really wanted, but a small part of me had lost hope. After almost 3 years of total failure, you lose hope. Again, going back to the adoption stuff. It's still on the agenda, it's just in hold. (We have to wait for classes anyways).

My momma has been informed and the MIL will be know soon. I know my mom hates how I tell her things, but I don't want her to be a boo hooin' momma... Hahahahah! I don't tell are as much as I should some times and when I do need to tell her the important stuff, I love catching her off guard.







Thursday, April 4, 2013

Wow...

So... Here we are married 3 years! We've sure battled some obstacles. Not against each other, but mainly in life itself. One of the biggest battles has been infertility. That is sure a word I don't like using!

Several months ago we made a heartfelt decision to adopt. It wasn't a hard decision, but after battling IF for nearly 3 years I was ready to give up. I promised myself when we set to adopt that it wasn't a stop to have own own baby some day, more like and addition. Everyone said, you know now that you've decided to adopt, you're going to get pregnant.

Well, maybe it's luck and maybe it's Gods grace, but I believe in miracles and have faith every day that we will get our rainbow! No, I don't go to church but that doesn't mean I don't believe. Over the last few months I've had a couple long talks with the "man upstairs."

Today, I had my first OB visit and in two weeks, April 19th I will have an ultra sound to make sure our little jelly bean has a a heartbeat and is growing as he or she should be. That's right blog followers, we're PREGNANT! Today I am officially 4 weeks and 4 days pregnant. Our current estimated due date is December 8, 2013!!! Here's to a happy and healthy 9 months!



Sometimes life goes just as you expect it to and sometimes it throws you curve balls.  I feel blessed to have been thrown the curve balls, for those have taught me to rely on those closet to me, family and friends.  They are your strength and they are your guide.  As much as you want to keep stuff to your self, the out pour of support you receive is amazing. 

That being said, I really am excited about this!  And honestly, I can not wait to share with our parents!!!  Soon my friends, soon!  Until then... Not a word about this!  ;)








Wednesday, April 3, 2013

3 years later..

Today marks 3 years since I married my soul mate.  Some people just say that, but I have truly found mine!  I love him heart and soul and he loves me!  He is my strength when I'm weak.  I LOVE YOU!!!


Thursday, March 7, 2013

Breaking....KIDDING!

Hiiiiiiiiiiiii!  I guess I've slacked a little on this lately.  Well, there's really not much new here.  I started Femara on Tuesday.  So far so good... By that, I mean no real side effects yet. 

Today is my Granny's 85th birthday!  Happy Birthday Granny!  I have her flowers ordered and I'll pick them up and deliver this afternoon!

Of course, we're still waiting on everything to fall into place since our classes were cancelled.  We will have to wait until May to find out when they will offer the next ones...


Monday, February 25, 2013

Bummer....

This morning, I got a phone call from our Social Worker telling me that the Stars classes had been cancelled for unforeseen circumstances!  I'm really kind of bummed about this.  I was given a contact number and have left a message about possibly doing the classes elsewhere...otherwise we'll have to wait until summer or fall to start.  BOO!  So the waiting game has officially began... UGH! 

Friday, February 15, 2013

Hello Friday!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!  Okay, okay I'm a day late at adding that.  The hubs got me some pretty flowers and the cutest card! 








Well, a few days ago I posted about the awesome valentine that my dear friend Shannon sent me... Well there is a FUNNY story here.  In our "girl" group we did a secret valentine.  Well, the items in my previous post arrived on the same day and I loved them.  Shannon said yes, they were from her, but she was a bit upset that the necklace, the adoption dust one, was not what she ordered.  Mind you I'm still waiting on something from my secret valentine.  I'm waiting and waiting for my sv gift to show up.  As of yesterday it still wasn't here.  Last night Shannon texted me and said that was my sv and it's wasn't from her it was from my sv...  HA!  What a day!  So to my sv, THANK YOU!!  I love my necklace.  :)  




On to the normal stuff.  Waiting to see if AF appears, I've had a few symptoms.... we'll see... I'll give it until next week, then it's off to take the bitchy pills...gah! :)  Such is life! 
 

Monday, February 11, 2013

The little things!

Today, I checked the mail and there were three things with my name on them, that weren't junk mail.

These three little items made my day, my week, heck maybe my month! THANK YOU!! I absolutely love the necklace and the saying. I can't wait to find the perfect spot for it! The card, well it says more in a few words than most people would ever understand and that's okay. It's not for them to get, it's for us! 💜

Friday, February 8, 2013

Our First Visit

Today was our first home visit. We had an idea of what to expect so most of it was not a huge surprise. Just as planned our social worker arrived at about 5 pm. She had some paper work for us to fill out, simple enough. She filled us in on several key things, like what we needed to do by the end of our classes. Just simple things, like making sure we have a fire extinguisher in the kitchen, child safety latches on any cabinets that have chemicals in them all medicine has to be under lock and key. Of course, she asked the simple questions, like age range, sibling groups and etc. We intend to adopt 0-4 years old and are willing to take a sibling group, preferably 2 kids. Boy or girl, we don't have a preference.

Our first in depth home visit will be shortly after classes start. And there will be three of these. We will also have a visit once every three months until placement. The future home visits will include a lot more paper work and discussing things in depth. One question she gave us that will come up was, what plan will you have in place for your child or children if something were to happen to both of you? That's a deep question and something any parent should think about.

I asked s question that has been on my mind since this all started. How long is the placement process and once we have a child how long until they are in our home. The placement process, there is no real answer. Some people can have placement in a year some five years, she said once we are selected for placement of a child or children, we could have as little as just a few hours to prepare. Kind of a scary thought if you are getting an infant or toddler, but have no fear! She said they'll help us out. They have car seats and she also said that usually there is a foster family willing to loan you other necessary items. FANTASTIC! Once placement is made, there is a six month "transition" period. During these 6 months, you will have visits starting at a couple times a week, down to just once a month. This is just to make sure everything is going okay and make sure every one is adapting to their "new" life.

I can't wait until classes start, for that matter are done so we can start receiving profiles of children available for adoption. This is all so exciting!!!!!


Thursday, February 7, 2013

Next step...

Well, I guess it's off to the next fertility treatment... Femara here we go!  

I have to say, I'm not real sure how I feel about this today.  Part of me wants to give up!  

Another part of me refuses to give up!  I'm hard headed and I've always got what I wanted.  (Yes, I'm spoiled) Besides, trying is fun!  :)

Here's to another month and hoping for a BFP!!  I will start Femara on CD 3, so CD 1 has to come first... I'm hopeful AF will arrive on her own, I really don't like inviting her with Provera...But I'll give it a week and see what happens.  Then go from there.  

Until next post... 





Wednesday, February 6, 2013

The answer is ...

That blank I needed to fill in yesterday, yea, that would be a whopping .... 0.5, yes zero point five...3 or better indicates ovulation...I've never had that... ARGH!  

So... time to concentrate on what the future holds.  Miracles happen and if it's meant to happen it will... 

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

It's only Tuesday....

It's only Tuesday, but it's really nice outside...To bad I can't skip work today, we have lots to do at home.  Well, not really, just vacuuming and moping. We've cleaned out more crap in the last week, where does all this crap come from?

Our first home visit is on Friday, we're excited and interested to see what she has to tell us.  I know it's mainly a walk through of our house to tell us what we need to fix, add and do and to fill out paper work.  WOO fun!  :)  We are beyond ready to start this process!

We've slowly been sharing when family.  Today, I was sharing with my cousin, Lauren.  What she had to share with me next was heartbreaking.  Her SIL is going through somewhat the same situation, but also has had 2 MC's and an Ecotopic pregnancy.  I really feel for them.  It totally sucks! 

There are lots of thoughts that go on in your head during this whole process.  Of course, our preferred age range is 0 - 4 years old.  We have the bedroom all set up and organized nicely.  Then all of a sudden, it hits, what if we end up with an infant or toddler, we'll need a crib. What if this... what if that... but you know what, it's all so worth it!  After all, Wal-Mart is open 24 hours a day!  HA!  :) 

Yesterday, I went for my progesterone blood draw.  I am awaiting the results and should have them sometime today... I'll fill in this _______ later.  As usual, today is kind of of pity party kind of day because I know the result won't be where it should just as always.  By tomorrow I'll be over it again. 

This was my last cycle of Clomid.  I think for now it's time for a break.  It's emotionally straining and time for a break from it!  :)


Friday, February 1, 2013

Sharing...

So, over the last few days, we've been telling some people, mainly just the people it pertains to and the need to know people, you know the ones who will figure out your up to something.  HA!  

So, on my way from the Dr's office yesterday, I called to tell my Granny.  First, she did not believe me... which I'm not surprised.  Then she went on to tell me to adopt a dog instead...  LOL!!!  Oh Granny!  Just one of those things you take with a grain of salt and go on.  

Other than that, just typical stuff going on in preperation.  Our first home visit will be next Friday, February 8th.  It is just an initial visit to make sure you have enough room, tell us exactly what we need to have, change and do.  It will also be the start of our criminal background checks and etc.  EXCITING!  Don't worry, I'll be sure to fill you all in! :)

   

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Parents

As I shared yesterday, the 'rents have been informed.  :)  I feel like I need to share a little more.  Of course my mom was in 100%, and pretty much knew it was her duty to fill in pa.  Well, after some serious words were said, mind you it is difficult for my father to be serious, he threw out one last comment, he said, "You could probably find a stray running around Wal-Mart on Saturday!"  It was at this point that I knew everything was going to be okay!  Not that I was worried or had any doubt, but just hearing him crack a joke let's me know that

This journey was big before and now that we have involved other people, it's even bigger.  Funny how something like this can be such a weight off your shoulders.  It's been about 2 1/2 years since our journey started and we've done a good job keeping it private, so we thought... Not my fault my MIL has ESP...  HAHAHA!

Monday, January 28, 2013

Should we make this a holiday?

Today has become the official fill in the 'rents day!  Maybe this wasn't the most appropriate way, but I sent my mom a text message at 745 am, knowing she would call me as soon as she read it.  ;)  Hey it's an ice breaker, right!  HA!

I had no doubt that she (and my pa) would give us 110% support in this.  My mothers response was, I hope you don't tell your MIL the same way you just told me.  HA!  I know how my mom takes things, so I wasn't worried about sending her a text message.  She did call and we did talk for a few minutes.  I told her well, I could have sent you a link to my blog and you could have found out that way.  (That was mean of me wasn't it!)

The MIL will find out later today... Brandon is going to tell her.. .I'll fill in on that later!  

Fast forward a couple of hours and now both mothers have been informed!  Today is a good day! :)  We can only go forward from here.

We've officially started background checks and signed up for the STARS classes.  

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Progress...

Today, started as a normal Saturday for us. Little did. Know we wold end up buying some furniture for the future kiddos room. Which also lead to buying paint, hey we've talked about painting this bedroom for two years, and painting.

There is officially one coat of paint on the walls, but it will definitely need a second. Hopefully we'll get to that tomorrow.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Along the way

When our journey started, I thought to my self who on earth will ever understand all this?   As I / we are pretty independent people.  We don't involve our parents in every life decision.   My mom and I are as close as we can be, but this was just one situation and decision I wasn't and still am not ready to share with her or the MIL.  We will share with them when the time is right.  We know that they will give us 100% support, but this is our journey.  We really have some of the best parents you could ask for!  They are all fantastic people.  (After all there are some other adoptions that have taken place through out my family)

Well, being a police wife, I turned to the one place I know I belong, my other police wives!!!  These women are amazing!  There are so many of us, that someone is always in or has been in your situation.  

At the beginning of our TTC journey, I posted and got several responses and good lucks and etc., but one person and I really "clicked!"  Shannon, I love you, you are one of the strongest women I have ever met, well sort of met, in my life! 

Granted, Shannon and I have never really met, she is in TX and I am in MO, but we are both on the same journey.  Our lives lead similar direction and well our husbands, they are both the most supportive husbands I've ever known.  If you want to read about another journey, check out her blog, http://thegoodthebadandthemarried.blogspot.com/ !

She is the one person who really gets what is going on.  She understands what it's like to be smacked into the reality of being a LEO wife, she understands how great it is when AF shows her nasty face with out meds and she understands how frustrating a BFN is month after month.   She's also the one who inspired me to blog about our journey.  She started her's long ago and knows a lot more about this blogging stuff than I do, I'm a beginner, what can I say!  LOL!!! 

I've also talked to several other amazing women who have started the same journey and adopted along the way.  It's really nice to ask questions and get REAL answers, not just something you read on Google.   The internet is full of nasty rumors and sad endings.  These ladies give real positive stories.  Some are still on their journey waiting for their own LO or waiting on their adoption agency to call, but following their story proves that these stories really do have happy endings.  

This is our fairly tale ladies!  It starts out great, through the middle we have ups, downs, thunderstorms and some really big curves along the way, but in the end there is a really bright ray of sunshine with a huge rainbow!  

  

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Here starts the Adoption Journey...

We have officially decided we're going to adopt.  As my previous post says, this is not the close to our TTC journey, more like an addition.  

The initial phone call was made a couple weeks ago, which gives you the contact number for your local Social Services person.  Yes, we are going to start our journey by adopting a child who is currently in the "system" we know we may not be given an infant, but our preferred age range in 0 - 4 years old.  

I finally got to talk to someone yesterday, January 22, 2013.  She was so nice and answered all of my questions with out hesitation.  

Basically, we have to go to a STARS class, which is held one evening a week for 9 weeks, since we want to be adoptive parents, we have to go for 2 additional weeks.  Prior to class starting, there will be an initial home visit.  At this home visit, it's pretty generic.  They check your house and tell you what you need to fix and change, explain the system in depth and get to know you, future parents.  This will also open our eyes a little more to confirm we are ready to tackle this!  (I think we are!) After 11 weeks of classes, the in depth home visits start.  There are usually more than one home visit.  They make sure your home is ready, find out about your family, the way you react to different things and etc.  After all that, you just wait for your child to come along.  There are so many children in the custody of the State of MO that I don't think it will take too long.  There is a trial period that the child lives with you to make sure you all adapt, and your case worker will still visit and see how the transition is going.  We don't want to do an open adoption.  Definitely closed...





There is also the option of a "private" adoption.  This is where you go through an agency and adopt an infant.  There is a huge expense to doing this.  The option is out there, but right not it's not the option for us, at least not right now.  

We will do our best to keep up on here, for you and for us to look at someday and think wow, what a journey!     

The start of our jouney...

Back in April of 2006, I met my soul mate.  In April of 2010, that soul mate became my husband.  Now everything we do is done as a team.  

Jump forward to August of 2010, we decided that we wanted to start TTC (trying to conceive).  We knew this would be a long trying process.  Little did we know where it would lead us.  The battle no woman ever wants to fight, infertility.  

My cycles were never normal, but I never thought about it because well, I just wasn't worried about it.  In December of 2009, I started AF but it didn't stop.  I dealt with it, two weeks on, a few days off, then on again and so on.  I thought it would stop on its, own, but it didn't  I finally made a dr. appointment.  I was told my sugar was a little out of whack and that was probably the issue, and was started on 500 mg of Metformin and birth control pills to try to regulate.  Two weeks before our wedding I had the worst bleeding of my life!  Again, the doc said let it run it's course, once your birth control pills kick in, it'll stop.  Low and behold, 5 days before my wedding it stopped!!!  Thank you Jesus!  Well, I continued to take the BC pills until September 1st.  That's when I stopped.  Again, no AF, no AF, no AF and so on... well, for me this was normal, it's how my periods have always gone.  Finally I would have one....then I'd skip several months...and so on... jump forward to December of 2011, I started having some spotting and by January 2012 here we go again, the never ending AF!  UGH... This went off and on until April, I started taking birth control pills again because I knew that would make it stop and we were fixing to go to the beach!!!   At the end of March, I called and made an appointment with an Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE).  First available appointment was in May.  That's okay, I know there aren't a lot of them and was willing to wait.  Finally, my appointment.  First appointment wasn't so bad.  They talked to me about what was going on and did some blood work.  They scheduled hubs for a sperm analysis (SA), and scheduled my next appointment, which would include a pap and a biopsy.... SCARY!!!  Fast forward to appointment #2, that was the most painful thing I can remember!  Sorry ladies, be prepared cause it hurts!  I have never left the doc crying until that day.  Poor hubs he was such a good sport!  :)  All results came back, my sugar was not out of whack, my A1C was 5.7, they get concerned at 6.0.  Hubs had to do a second SA, the first one wasn't quite what they wanted to see, but the second one was fine.  As for me, basically I have PCOS, I just haven't ever had an issue with cysts... So our fertility treatment begins...I started round one, Provera to induce period, Clomid 50 mg, cd 3-7 with 500 mg Metformin.  No response, on to cycle 2, Provera to induce period, 100 mg Clomid, cd 3-7 with 500 mg Metformin.  No response, BUT I got AF naturally!!!  YAY!!!!!  On to cycle 3, 150 mg Clomid, cd 3-7 with 500 mg Metformin.  No response again!  :(  Follow up appointment to discuss our next option.  My RE said that at my weight, 500 mg Metformin isn't going to do anything (We just followed this regimen that I was already on) and that higher doses of Metformin paired with Clomid can help.  One side effect of  PCOS is insulin resistance....It's amazing how all these organs in your body works together, I've learned A LOT!!  Anyways, I had the option to try Clomid with 2000 mg of Metformin or try Femera, which is marketed for breast cancer patients but has been proven to work with fertility.  Femera is more expensive, so for now, I chose to try Clomid with a high dose of Metformin.  I did the first round in December, 100 mg  Clomid with 2000 mg Metformin... No response, BUT again, I got my period naturally!!!  Onto the next cycle... 200 mg Clomid with 2000 mg Metformin.  Still waiting on the results.  I havne't had a positive OPK yet, so I'm not ready to go do blood work to check my progesterone.  

A midst all off this, early on in our relationship, we talked about adoption.  We both have big hearts and love kids.  So that has always been in the back of our minds.  Well, we've decided we're going to start the adoption process.  This in no way puts our TTC journey on hold or calls it quits!  What ever happens, is meant to happen.  If we end up with a house full, that's okay!  More on the adoption journey in my next post. 

You are now up to speed as to what this blog will be about.  You've read about our TTC journey and you'll still read about it, you will also be reading about our Adoption journey!  Can't wait to write about that in my next post.  :)