Bummer....

This morning, I got a phone call from our Social Worker telling me that the Stars classes had been cancelled for unforeseen circumstances!  I'm really kind of bummed about this.  I was given a contact number and have left a message about possibly doing the classes elsewhere...otherwise we'll have to wait until summer or fall to start.  BOO!  So the waiting game has officially began... UGH! 

Hello Friday!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!  Okay, okay I'm a day late at adding that.  The hubs got me some pretty flowers and the cutest card! 








Well, a few days ago I posted about the awesome valentine that my dear friend Shannon sent me... Well there is a FUNNY story here.  In our "girl" group we did a secret valentine.  Well, the items in my previous post arrived on the same day and I loved them.  Shannon said yes, they were from her, but she was a bit upset that the necklace, the adoption dust one, was not what she ordered.  Mind you I'm still waiting on something from my secret valentine.  I'm waiting and waiting for my sv gift to show up.  As of yesterday it still wasn't here.  Last night Shannon texted me and said that was my sv and it's wasn't from her it was from my sv...  HA!  What a day!  So to my sv, THANK YOU!!  I love my necklace.  :)  




On to the normal stuff.  Waiting to see if AF appears, I've had a few symptoms.... we'll see... I'll give it until next week, then it's off to take the bitchy pills...gah! :)  Such is life! 
 

The little things!

Today, I checked the mail and there were three things with my name on them, that weren't junk mail.

These three little items made my day, my week, heck maybe my month! THANK YOU!! I absolutely love the necklace and the saying. I can't wait to find the perfect spot for it! The card, well it says more in a few words than most people would ever understand and that's okay. It's not for them to get, it's for us! 💜

Our First Visit

Today was our first home visit. We had an idea of what to expect so most of it was not a huge surprise. Just as planned our social worker arrived at about 5 pm. She had some paper work for us to fill out, simple enough. She filled us in on several key things, like what we needed to do by the end of our classes. Just simple things, like making sure we have a fire extinguisher in the kitchen, child safety latches on any cabinets that have chemicals in them all medicine has to be under lock and key. Of course, she asked the simple questions, like age range, sibling groups and etc. We intend to adopt 0-4 years old and are willing to take a sibling group, preferably 2 kids. Boy or girl, we don't have a preference.

Our first in depth home visit will be shortly after classes start. And there will be three of these. We will also have a visit once every three months until placement. The future home visits will include a lot more paper work and discussing things in depth. One question she gave us that will come up was, what plan will you have in place for your child or children if something were to happen to both of you? That's a deep question and something any parent should think about.

I asked s question that has been on my mind since this all started. How long is the placement process and once we have a child how long until they are in our home. The placement process, there is no real answer. Some people can have placement in a year some five years, she said once we are selected for placement of a child or children, we could have as little as just a few hours to prepare. Kind of a scary thought if you are getting an infant or toddler, but have no fear! She said they'll help us out. They have car seats and she also said that usually there is a foster family willing to loan you other necessary items. FANTASTIC! Once placement is made, there is a six month "transition" period. During these 6 months, you will have visits starting at a couple times a week, down to just once a month. This is just to make sure everything is going okay and make sure every one is adapting to their "new" life.

I can't wait until classes start, for that matter are done so we can start receiving profiles of children available for adoption. This is all so exciting!!!!!

Next step...

Well, I guess it's off to the next fertility treatment... Femara here we go!  

I have to say, I'm not real sure how I feel about this today.  Part of me wants to give up!  

Another part of me refuses to give up!  I'm hard headed and I've always got what I wanted.  (Yes, I'm spoiled) Besides, trying is fun!  :)

Here's to another month and hoping for a BFP!!  I will start Femara on CD 3, so CD 1 has to come first... I'm hopeful AF will arrive on her own, I really don't like inviting her with Provera...But I'll give it a week and see what happens.  Then go from there.  

Until next post... 

The answer is ...

That blank I needed to fill in yesterday, yea, that would be a whopping .... 0.5, yes zero point five...3 or better indicates ovulation...I've never had that... ARGH!  

So... time to concentrate on what the future holds.  Miracles happen and if it's meant to happen it will... 

It's only Tuesday....

It's only Tuesday, but it's really nice outside...To bad I can't skip work today, we have lots to do at home.  Well, not really, just vacuuming and moping. We've cleaned out more crap in the last week, where does all this crap come from?

Our first home visit is on Friday, we're excited and interested to see what she has to tell us.  I know it's mainly a walk through of our house to tell us what we need to fix, add and do and to fill out paper work.  WOO fun!  :)  We are beyond ready to start this process!

We've slowly been sharing when family.  Today, I was sharing with my cousin, Lauren.  What she had to share with me next was heartbreaking.  Her SIL is going through somewhat the same situation, but also has had 2 MC's and an Ecotopic pregnancy.  I really feel for them.  It totally sucks! 

There are lots of thoughts that go on in your head during this whole process.  Of course, our preferred age range is 0 - 4 years old.  We have the bedroom all set up and organized nicely.  Then all of a sudden, it hits, what if we end up with an infant or toddler, we'll need a crib. What if this... what if that... but you know what, it's all so worth it!  After all, Wal-Mart is open 24 hours a day!  HA!  :) 

Yesterday, I went for my progesterone blood draw.  I am awaiting the results and should have them sometime today... I'll fill in this _______ later.  As usual, today is kind of of pity party kind of day because I know the result won't be where it should just as always.  By tomorrow I'll be over it again. 

This was my last cycle of Clomid.  I think for now it's time for a break.  It's emotionally straining and time for a break from it!  :)

Sharing...

So, over the last few days, we've been telling some people, mainly just the people it pertains to and the need to know people, you know the ones who will figure out your up to something.  HA!  

So, on my way from the Dr's office yesterday, I called to tell my Granny.  First, she did not believe me... which I'm not surprised.  Then she went on to tell me to adopt a dog instead...  LOL!!!  Oh Granny!  Just one of those things you take with a grain of salt and go on.  

Other than that, just typical stuff going on in preperation.  Our first home visit will be next Friday, February 8th.  It is just an initial visit to make sure you have enough room, tell us exactly what we need to have, change and do.  It will also be the start of our criminal background checks and etc.  EXCITING!  Don't worry, I'll be sure to fill you all in! :)